Thursday, 10 April 2014

Inside/Outside by Jenny Hayworth

Inside/OutsideInside/Outside by Jenny Hayworth
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Its been said that Jehovah's Witnesses are a cult. I think most religions are a cult. But this is not about Jehovah's Witnesses alone, its about Jenny Hayworth's experiences of child abuse and her life, then her marriage, and her children.

I was raised in the Jehovah's Witnesses from the age of 7 years old. I got out over 20 years ago. For my own reasons. I have not experiences abuse but a friend of mine did. I didn't know anything about it to many years later. Many, many years later. The effects this can have on someone is immense. As anyone who has been sexually abused will tell you.

In the aspect of the JWS, it brings into question the fact that they need two Witnesses to proceed in the allegation. I was appalled in reading this, as we know, crimes like this are committed in secret! there will never be witnesses. Then the fact about not being able to go to the Police, that threw me too. I am not a Jehovah's Witness. I do not uphold any religion at this present moment in time,

Jenny Hayworth put over a story that was heart rending, shocking, if not just the abuse itself but the peoples reactions to it. Not just the religion, but her family itself. You see, the JWS shun people when they oust them from their religion which isolated very vulnerable people at times. Some do not get over it, some have committed suicide.

I was greatly interested in reading Jenny's story, I hated the fact that this happened to her. I hated the fact that no protection was set in place for her and other such vulnerable children within that Organisation. Something has to be done.

I loved how Jenny took the negative in her life and has now made it into a positive. I find that with all that she has gone through, all the deep tunnels, the dark dungeons in her mind, the suicide bids, the depression, out came Jenny at the end.

She was once inside, now she is outside.

Thank you Jenny for an honest and open account of your experiences it told in such a way that it has truly made you a survivor. And someone to be able to help others.

Award winning book - Finalist Beverley Hills Book Awards 2014 
Jenny Hayworth grew up within the construct of the Jehovah's Witnesses, which she describes as a fundamentalist, cult-like religion. She devoted her life to it for over thirty years. Then she left it. The church "disfellowshipped" her- rendered her dead to those family and friends still committed to the church. 

Hayworth is a sexual abuse survivor. The trauma changed her self-perception, emotional development, trust, and every interaction with the world. Inside/Outside is her exploration of sexual abuse, religious fundamentalism, and recovery. 

Her childhood circumstances and tragedies forced her to live "inside". This memoir chronicles her journey from experiencing comfort and emotional satisfaction only within her own fantasy world to developing the ability to feel and express real life emotion on the outside. 

It is a story that begins with tragic multigenerational abuse, within an oppressive society, and ends with hope and rebirth into a life where she experiences real connections and satisfaction with the outside world. 

Those who have ever felt trapped by trauma or circumstances will find Inside/Outside a dramatic reassurance that they are not alone in the world, and they have the ability to have a fulfilling life, both inside and out

Mark it to read




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